david1111 Posted June 14, 2019 Share Posted June 14, 2019 9 minutes ago, Kev40 said: Out of the thousands of times I've gambled over the years i was always happy if i broke even by the end of the day. Well more out of relief actually so I'm trying to get in my head i can break even everyday by not gambling at all. I was the same, but I was gambling with the need to win so not really fun and I've finally realized as I've said before is that you will always give more back than you win. It's taken 30 years to see the light, but better late than never 3 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted June 14, 2019 Author Share Posted June 14, 2019 3 minutes ago, david1111 said: I was the same, but I was gambling with the need to win so not really fun and I've finally realized as I've said before is that you will always give more back than you win. It's taken 30 years to see the light, but better late than never You can stand proud of you mate You've been here from the start by my side and you've helped me in times of need. I will always remain indebted to you. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
david1111 Posted June 14, 2019 Share Posted June 14, 2019 1 minute ago, Antonin said: You can stand proud of you mate You've been here from the start by my side and you've helped me in times of need. I will always remain indebted to you. Thanks mate. I also want to help miller in view of recent events but it's difficult as he's a proud person and seems to want to go alone 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted June 14, 2019 Author Share Posted June 14, 2019 Just now, david1111 said: Thanks mate. I also want to help miller in view of recent events but it's difficult as he's a proud person and seems to want to go alone I know mate, but in life we also need some humility even though it's hard to show for some people 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
philinvicta Posted June 14, 2019 Share Posted June 14, 2019 6 minutes ago, david1111 said: Thanks mate. I also want to help miller in view of recent events but it's difficult as he's a proud person and seems to want to go alone I think Miller needs to try and find his own way but it is very hard to do this kind of thing without support. Also it does seem however much he wins that he will not slow down. I am thinking of the recent 20k plus down to zero episode and when people do this you know they are in a bit of trouble with their gambling. Yesterdays episode was an example but he did not post up what he was doing and only wrote about it afterwards on the forum. But he was brave enough to say he had done it despite the reaction he was likely to get. I just hope he finds a way as it affects you mentally whether he can afford the loss or not. I think the support of other people who know what you are going through and understand the dynamics can only help. 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted June 14, 2019 Author Share Posted June 14, 2019 10 hours ago, adamuk said: It's like a Avalanche of giving up well done all. Keep strong keep going and keep posting and supporting each other. As another person once said.... " Great thread never in doubt " You just can't even imagine how grateful Im! It makes me so happy to see others succeed 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
david1111 Posted June 14, 2019 Share Posted June 14, 2019 4 minutes ago, Antonin said: You just can't even imagine how grateful Im! It makes me so happy to see others succeed Indeed. This is more than just a gambling community now. Of course, we still want to see people win etc and share their success, but people can now join the community purely for support with so many experienced people on here who can help. I think something special has been created here 5 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Markymark Posted June 14, 2019 Share Posted June 14, 2019 Great stuff guys, you all should be proud of yourselves. Ave stopped many times but never succeeded in keeping it going. My life is far from perfect, but ave found a way to live with my gambling problems, its as close as I can get to not gambling. So I know how hard it is to stop, and even harder to maintain. Much love guys. 2 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted June 14, 2019 Author Share Posted June 14, 2019 (edited) 5 minutes ago, Markymark said: Great stuff guys, you all should be proud of yourselves. Ave stopped many times but never succeeded in keeping it going. My life is far from perfect, but ave found a way to live with my gambling problems, its as close as I can get to not gambling. So I know how hard it is to stop, and even harder to maintain. Much love guys. One day mate, One day ... No matter how long it takes you Thank you for being here Edited June 14, 2019 by Antonin The most important thing is you life happy 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted June 14, 2019 Author Share Posted June 14, 2019 By the way, I'm sorry, I'm being late for that little talk on my recovery ... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted June 15, 2019 Author Share Posted June 15, 2019 I haven't gambled for 104 / 120 days 1 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted June 15, 2019 Author Share Posted June 15, 2019 After +100 days, it's time to do a little talk on my recovery. My last bet was March 4, 2019; I've been gambling since I was 18 When I look back, I escalated into a CG so quickly In the beginning; I would gamble a small money, like €5-20 tops. It has never been a problem because I could affort it My main issue started off when I was gambling online when I got my first job 4 years ago I had money in my bank that I could spend with no thought. I had no idea what the gambling addiction was On a night I had been winning more than €6000, it was like a dream, I thought I could make a living from gambling ... I can still recall that high felling I ended up losing it all. I hated losing. I always wanted to get it all back, no matter what I always chased my losses. I thought I was smarter than the Casino. I've spent all that time and energy gambling online, dealt with emotional lows of bad beats. I sacrificed food and sleep. It was like a purpuse in my life. I was gambling to make some money. As we all know, that could not be the case. I would make large bets €400, €600, €1500 on a roulette spin. I was hoping for that hot streak. By then, I was usually exhausted and just really wanted to get my money back or losing it all. More than often, I would lose it all. I would go gome, transfer the last bit of my own money and telling myself "last chance at it" ... The cycle would repeat itself for 4 years. I would always minimize my losses, saying I lost €400 when in reality that was €3000 It is so lonely to be in this struggle on my own. In the past 7 years, I've lost over €30,000. I have come to the realization it's impossible to beat gambling on my own. What I need is support and then without it I could not. I quit 3 months ago, I really happy now 4 1 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
philinvicta Posted June 15, 2019 Share Posted June 15, 2019 3 minutes ago, Antonin said: After +100 days, it's time to do a little talk on my recovery. My last bet was March 4, 2019; I've been gambling since I was 18 When I look back, I escalated into a CG so quickly In the beginning; I would gamble a small money, like €5-20 tops. It has never been a problem because I could affort it My main issue started off when I was gambling online when I got my first job 4 years ago I had money in my bank that I could spend with no thought. I had no idea what the gambling addiction was On a night I had been winning more than €6000, it was like a dream, I thought I could make a living from gambling ... I can still recall that high felling I ended up losing it all. I hated losing. I always wanted to get it all back, no matter what I always chased my losses. I thought I was smarter than the Casino. I've spent all that time and energy gambling online, dealt with emotional lows of bad beats. I sacrificed food and sleep. It was like a purpuse in my life. I was gambling to make some money. As we all know, that could not be the case. I would make large bets €400, €600, €1500 on a roulette spin. I was hoping for that hot streak. By then, I was usually exhausted and just really wanted to get my money back or losing it all. More than often, I would lose it all. I would go gome, transfer the last bit of my own money and telling myself "last chance at it" ... The cycle would repeat itself for 4 years. I would always minimize my losses, saying I lost €400 when in reality that was €3000 It is so lonely to be in this struggle on my own. In the past 7 years, I've lost over €30,000. I have come to the realization it's impossible to beat gambling on my own. What I need is support and then without it I could not. I quit 3 months ago, I really happy now We have all been through this I have estimated that I lost around 250k over my lifetime. You just need to make sure that over the next 7 years that the 30k means you have a better life rather than the casinos or bookies getting your money 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
groundiskey Posted June 15, 2019 Share Posted June 15, 2019 8 minutes ago, Antonin said: I quit 3 months ago, I really happy now Great to read. This is a fantastic achievement. Thanks for sharing. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kev40 Posted June 15, 2019 Share Posted June 15, 2019 Day 7 for me. The true test will come week on Friday. Got a decent pay coming on the 28th. It's easy at the minute with not much spare cash available. 6 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted June 15, 2019 Author Share Posted June 15, 2019 19 minutes ago, Kev40 said: Day 7 for me. The true test will come week on Friday. Got a decent pay coming on the 28th. It's easy at the minute with not much spare cash available. I've been there so many time mate. You can do this. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kev40 Posted June 15, 2019 Share Posted June 15, 2019 28 minutes ago, Antonin said: I've been there so many time mate. You can do this. I know i can mate. When i put my mind to it i can do anything. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hacko 1 Posted June 15, 2019 Share Posted June 15, 2019 (edited) A little update from myself on my gambling, my first attempt to quit got me to day 8 without a gamble and then I got drunk and before I knew it I’d deposited £30 in sky bet although I managed to withdraw £500 from this it didn’t feel like a win, I’d let myself down and people on here and I felt it. When your deep into gambling like I was over many years it’s so hard to break the cycle your in, gambling becomes the be all and end all of your life, I was living to gamble. Since I crumbled and deposited that £30 I have not gambled, I have just counted the number of days on the calendar since my last bet and I’m quite surprised. Days since I’ve not gambled is 35. Im in a much happier place now, I’ve broken the cycle and my mind isn’t overloaded with gambling thoughts anymore. In all honesty I don’t think I’d of been able to manage it without this forum and the tremendous people involved in it, I thank you all and wish everybody who is quitting gambling all the very best luck. Peace and love everyone Edited June 15, 2019 by Hacko 1 2 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
david1111 Posted June 15, 2019 Share Posted June 15, 2019 @Hacko 1 you're definitely on the right track. Also, spot on when you mention how you feel when you fall off the wagon so to speak. The gambling becomes secondary to the feeling of disappointment that you have let yourself down. I certainly don't want that feeling again, it's worse than a loss. Good luck mate. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
philinvicta Posted June 15, 2019 Share Posted June 15, 2019 It is amazing how much carnage we can cause to our finances with just one day of falling of the wagon so to speak. It also makes you feel so bad afterwards. I hope you guys can keep it going and if you are struggling I hope you find a way to stop it quickly. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted June 16, 2019 Author Share Posted June 16, 2019 I haven't gambled for 105 / 120 days 1 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bangers Posted June 16, 2019 Share Posted June 16, 2019 Doing awesome mate and I feel it's now safe to say you are repaired Some of the members might have been a guide but you done most of this on your own Great stuff! Have you been getting out on the bike ? 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted June 16, 2019 Author Share Posted June 16, 2019 (edited) 3 hours ago, Bangers said: Doing awesome mate and I feel it's now safe to say you are repaired Some of the members might have been a guide but you done most of this on your own Great stuff! Have you been getting out on the bike ? I honestly can't say never ever again but I've realized I can't control myself anymore when it comes to gambling. I also don't want to ruin my hard work because at the moment I'm feeling very good about it and I'm very happy to see the others succed as well. Yeah, I've been riding my bike many time but mainly on my day off really A bit harder during the week as I'm working quite hard Edited June 16, 2019 by Antonin 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bangers Posted June 16, 2019 Share Posted June 16, 2019 3 minutes ago, Antonin said: I honestly can't say never ever again but I've realized I can't control myself anymore when it comes to gambling. I also don't want to ruin my hard work because at the moment I'm feeling very good about it and I'm very happy to see the others succed as well. Yeah, I've been riding my bike many time but mainly on my day off really A bit harder during the week as I'm working quite hard Good stuff I'm just starting to get a little control now and I'm nearly 50 lol Walking away and having a think really is the best instead of that daft chase, I still get a massive buzz from those ALL IN bets but just been very fortunate the last few I've done that they have paid off, I guess many of us gamblers should never say never or maybe we just don't own a rule book and that can be our biggest flaw. The time and effort you have put in is like an insurance policy, you are doing great man so just focus and keep that No claims bonus lol Awesome stuff! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted June 16, 2019 Author Share Posted June 16, 2019 23 minutes ago, Bangers said: Good stuff I'm just starting to get a little control now and I'm nearly 50 lol Walking away and having a think really is the best instead of that daft chase, I still get a massive buzz from those ALL IN bets but just been very fortunate the last few I've done that they have paid off, I guess many of us gamblers should never say never or maybe we just don't own a rule book and that can be our biggest flaw. The time and effort you have put in is like an insurance policy, you are doing great man so just focus and keep that No claims bonus lol Awesome stuff! I can clearly understand that buzz it gives you. Also when you've been addicted for that long I suppose the brain has suffered much more from gambling so it's much harder to give up but not impossible. Look at @david1111. He's doing very nice at the moment, +2 weeks gamble free for him. @Hacko 1 @Kev40 @centipede are doing great as well Cheers and thank you 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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