;( i can relate to so much of this, fortunately i have very good friends too my wife hasn't given up on me yet ha ha, to read your story from the start and to where you are now is very helpful for me and i thankyou for sharing it, although as i continue to carry on battling to keep my gambling in control i realise that so many people are suffering that same fate. Good luck for the future because thats where you should be looking not the past, you`re in control of the future do not waste it mate, good luck