Mounsey11

Just gonna share my story really. Will probably be a load of waffle but have a read if you like, think I’ll feel better after anyway. Not really one for sharing, not even to my closest friends & family, been thinking about posting on here a while but just never done it. I’ve grown up watching my dad gamble on basically every sport going, albeit he was not a high stakes gambler to this day he still only does £5/£6 lucky 15s with his picks on the horses. I first starting gambling at 18, literally I’d bet £5 a week on the football and be gutted if it lost. If I could see what I have been gambling lately back then I’d of lost my mind, Moving on to going on lads holidays on a shite wage, taking out credit cards acting like it’s free money, taking payday loans out to pay them off and basically living from payday loans payday to payday for a good year I found myself in around £10,000 worth of debt. The bets started to increase in value, I remember one month I had £100 to last me 3 weeks. In my head I thought what’s the point in even having that, so I put a treble on the football at 4-1. It did come in and sorted me out but in hindsight it led me down quite a dark path. Eventually the debt got on top of me and I had no choice but to tell my mum but I never told her about the gambling. My mum took out a loan in her name and paid everything off and told me to snap the credit cards and never take out a payday loan again. I snapped the cards but I didn’t close the accounts thinking just in case of a rainy day. Fast forward 3 months I’m running 5k worth of over due payments again. Taking out more loans and paying some off, gambling to try and pay the loans off quicker and losing (shock). I found a paid horse tipster online offering a free month, never had really been one for the horses except the national once a year. Thought hey, let’s give it a go. I made more than I’d ever made from football bets in that month, sticking to his system and tips. I was making more than my actual wage at the time from this, so i started upping the stakes, if one of his tips lost id put more on the next for the day, if two lost I’d stick a load more on the last thinking it was due. I’d made an account using sky bet and forgot all my details so I made an account in my mums name with the same initial and managed to deposit with my card for a while. Then I hit the jackpot, hit a 16-1 with £20 on the nose. Put about £200 on a double and £90 on a treble spread across a couple of sites combing my tipster and my picks. I needed a 5-1 shot for well over £4,000 on sky. So I put a £100 saving on the second fave. My horse look like it’d been best by a nose but they judged it to have won! After a stewards enquiry they reversed the result and I got paid out for my saver as well, that was a nervous afternoon at the office! Instantly, my account was banned. Basically in the end I’d either lose 4k or get my mum to ring up and explain I’d been using her account, just told her I won a bet and lost my details so used hers. She was fine with it, sky to be fair to them said no issues and transferred the account into my name but before the conversation ended my mum asked how much was on the account. Obviously knowing my history with debt hearing £4,000 was a red flag. I gave her £2,000 to finish the payments on my car & then £700 went on my holiday I had booked. The rest went back into the horses, this was the beginning of the end. I was on a major tilt, my tipster hadn’t put up a winner for about a week. I put £750 on a just over evens shot to recoup some loses. It lost. I reverted to the points system and my tipster went on a 2 month losing streak. I was just with my current girlfriend at the time who hated me going on the fruits in the pub. I think she knew I had a problem before I did. When we were drunk she asked me how much I gamble a day. I told her £50 and we argued for a while. Eventually I said I would stop for her plus I was on a massive losing streak so why not. I self excluded from any betting provider I had and stopped for a while. I’d still do the occasional footy bet and go to the races for birthdays etc. After a night out me and a couple of friends ended up at a land based casino, was actually the first real time I’d played table games except a couple of £20s on the fobts 20p roulette. This rekindled really my love for gambling. I started again mostly on casinos obviously this time I had to be more secretative with the other half. Which brings me to around a year ago I’d say. I’d go to the casino on a Friday night, usually lose a tonne, sometimes come back even and very rarely came back slightly up, I think £200 was the most I’d ever come back with. I’d always be on the tilt get back hammered at 4am and spunk more cash into casinos online. This went on for a while. Eventually got properly back into my old ways of 3 weeks til payday and I’d have no money. Lying to the girlfriend, borrowing money from my mum/friends. I’ve never stolen money so their is hope for me yet. Except for once when I had 11 in a land based casino and I was holding the taxi money back. It was a tilted hand where I’d put my last £60 on and against a six and I needed the double so ‘borrowed’ it. Luckily it won I went and cashed in and replaced it but could have been a slippery slope! I’m now only 23 and I’d class myself as a compulsive gambler. Found rocknrollas YouTube channel trying to feed the addition by watching big blackjack and roulette sessions when I was skint and couldn’t bet! I signed up the gamstop after losing £750 I’d made on lighting roulette by reversing my withdrawal. Worst bit is I made it from a tenner and really needed the money. I went straight on and got 8 at 150x then £6 on 23 at 100x a few spins later. Gotta love that tier, was in the pub with a mate going absolutely mental. Reversed and cashed £700 the next day on 21casino to try and make a bit more with the £50 one thing led to another and it was all gone. I’d heard about gamstop through rocknrolla and it helped me for a month or so, til I had money again and found an online casino that wasn’t uk based. They gave me an automatic bonus on my first deposit that I didn’t want! It only came updated on my balance after I left the blackjack table with about £500. I hadn’t touched the bonus funds but they wouldn’t let me withdraw - not a casino you’d recommend to anyone! Anyway eventually I found a better one got a bit addicted to extra chilli which pretty much brings me to present day. I’ve lost the majority of my wages the last 4 months to gambling. I’ve been massively up, reversed and lost it. It’s compulsive, after gambling it’s always my “last” gamble. I don’t plan on gambling. I’ll be in my room at night and think why not just £10 on chilli, obviously leads to more. My girlfriend came to my house whilst I was in the shower and read my texts to my mate who is probably as addicted as I am. Obviously a lot of gambling talk in there (the gambling I’ve been telling her I’ve quit for well over a year and half) and shit hit the fan. I promised I’d stop, never touch another gambling website. Easy to say when your skint. She stayed with me. I go on holiday in 2 weeks, I had £500 saved up and £250 to last me two weeks. Again compulsively put £50 in. Which lead to more which lead to me actually being up £450. Cashed it, buzzing sorted out now, I’ll stop. No more gambling not just for me now for her as well. Fancied another £10 on chilli which paid £300 for a £10 buy the other night! Obviously it didn’t stop there. I’ve now spent all the money I had for my holiday, not sure what I’m going to do. I’ll figure something out hopefully and I get paid 7 days into the 10 day holiday so can get stuff on the room (I hope). I’ve just self excluded myself from the final casino I could play at, haven’t been to a land based one for at least two months. Honestly I feel so much better without the temptation of being able to gamble. I’m gonna try my hardest to keep away, this time I need it to be for good. Not after a few months go back to small stakes, I need to never ever touch gambling again. I want to be in a position where I don’t need to be banned to not gamble. As as it stands I’m 23 years old. In 8 grands worth of debt, owe my mum an absolute shit tonne and not just in terms of money, got an absolute gem who I’ve lied to and made look a fool really who I am going to do better by from now on. I feel so bad, not for me because I just know I’m a reprobate at this stage but for the people around me who love me. I have an issue, I’m trying to fix it, trying to be a better person. Easy to say on the first day but I think I’ll stick to it this time. Hopefully I’ll sort something out for my holiday, I’m in a better job now where I get a better wage, I’ve set up a 3 year plan to be out of debt, and have a deposit saved for a house. Hopefully the defaults on my credit file will be gone by then. Anyways, this is long enough already! If any of you stuck around this long to read this, thanks. That’s my story, it’s far from over, hopefully this can help other people out there like me, it didn’t feel real til I’ve put it all down and if nothing else it’s helped me sharing all of this so thanks for reading??

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