philinvicta Posted March 23, 2022 Share Posted March 23, 2022 You have done well @Antonin you can not beat your self up over one lapse. Luckily you managed to stop and even though 1k is a lot to lose I am glad you managed to stop there. You have controlled the urge to gamble so hopefully you will be able to get back on and stay on the non gambling path. I hope your business interests are going well and they will provide for the future that you want. 1 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted March 23, 2022 Author Share Posted March 23, 2022 (edited) 3 hours ago, philinvicta said: You have done well @Antonin you can not beat your self up over one lapse. Luckily you managed to stop and even though 1k is a lot to lose I am glad you managed to stop there. You have controlled the urge to gamble so hopefully you will be able to get back on and stay on the non gambling path. I hope your business interests are going well and they will provide for the future that you want. Thanks for the kind words. I know 1000€ is a lot for some people but to me it doesn't seem like a lot anymore considering I have a lot more money that I've never had when I was gambling. I only gamble when I'm not felling well or bored. I know the disaster it can be if I continue to gamble so I must stay on the track. Edited March 23, 2022 by Antonin 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bangers Posted March 24, 2022 Share Posted March 24, 2022 @Antonin That's not good, Mmmmmm Can't say this was a good read for me as I really did hope you had cracked things and was home free However I do understand the power of addictions along with that strange pull they can have on us, I also fully respect your honesty but I'm a bit disappointed with the fall back after such a long time away from gambling and setting new markers as the days turned into months and so on. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted March 26, 2022 Author Share Posted March 26, 2022 On 24/03/2022 at 22:29, Bangers said: @Antonin That's not good, Mmmmmm Can't say this was a good read for me as I really did hope you had cracked things and was home free However I do understand the power of addictions along with that strange pull they can have on us, I also fully respect your honesty but I'm a bit disappointed with the fall back after such a long time away from gambling and setting new markers as the days turned into months and so on. Thank you for your support. I know it's a shame because I've done so much. I'll never win anyway. I know that. The road is long, I hold on. I will do it again. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bangers Posted March 26, 2022 Share Posted March 26, 2022 6 hours ago, Antonin said: Thank you for your support. I know it's a shame because I've done so much. I'll never win anyway. I know that. The road is long, I hold on. I will do it again. I look at this about 6 or more times a year It means more to me as each year passes, the years appear to have sped up or so it seems. I once was the same age as you are now, that was many years ago and time for me really is running out You still have time to fix things but I always said that back when I was your age. Do it now, PLEASE! 1 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted March 26, 2022 Author Share Posted March 26, 2022 4 hours ago, Bangers said: I look at this about 6 or more times a year It means more to me as each year passes, the years appear to have sped up or so it seems. I once was the same age as you are now, that was many years ago and time for me really is running out You still have time to fix things but I always said that back when I was your age. Do it now, PLEASE! So true, I love that! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted May 6, 2022 Author Share Posted May 6, 2022 (edited) Well, It DIDN'T Go as planned! I've lost a little bit more MONEY! TO THIS DAY ON MAY 6, 2022, I'm starting a new JOURNEY to be gamble free once again. I cannot handle to lose anymore money ... This IS NOT WORTH IT at all. I WILL KEEP YOU POSTED! I will do an update next month. I really don't know why I'M DOING THIS TO MYSELF! THE STORM MUST END NOW! Anyway, have a great week-end! Edited May 6, 2022 by Antonin 1 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
philinvicta Posted May 6, 2022 Share Posted May 6, 2022 1 hour ago, Antonin said: Well, It DIDN'T Go as planned! I've lost a little bit more MONEY! TO THIS DAY ON MAY 6, 2022, I'm starting a new JOURNEY to be gamble free once again. I cannot handle to lose anymore money ... This IS NOT WORTH IT at all. I WILL KEEP YOU POSTED! I will do an update next month. I really don't know why I'M DOING THIS TO MYSELF! THE STORM MUST END NOW! Anyway, have a great week-end! I wish you well whilst also feeling sad . I for one was glad to see you had managed to stop and move on to better things, Believe me when I say that some of us who are older and have never shaken it wish that all the young ones with a problem with gambling would be able to stop and not go through life with the problems being a gambler can bring 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted May 7, 2022 Author Share Posted May 7, 2022 (edited) 12 hours ago, philinvicta said: I wish you well whilst also feeling sad . I for one was glad to see you had managed to stop and move on to better things, Believe me when I say that some of us who are older and have never shaken it wish that all the young ones with a problem with gambling would be able to stop and not go through life with the problems being a gambler can bring Phil, I'm really glad I found this forum because it has helped me a lot and will help me again. I know that there are people who listen to me. I need to express myself and write what I feel to find the right path. Today is the first day. I stop digging. Have a nice day. Edited May 7, 2022 by Antonin 1 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted May 7, 2022 Author Share Posted May 7, 2022 I'm also a bit confused because I thought I was done with this gambling demon. I don't know how many times I'll fall. However, I am fully responsible and I'll take that loss like a man. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
david1111 Posted May 7, 2022 Share Posted May 7, 2022 5 minutes ago, Antonin said: I'm also a bit confused because I thought I was done with this gambling demon. I don't know how many times I'll fall. However, I am fully responsible and I'll take that loss like a man. Hi Antonin, sorry to read you've had a relapse. Unfortunately the gambling demons will always be there lying dormant waiting to escape. You maybe have a trigger that causes you to gamble. Is it boredom. That's the worst. All I can say is that you have succeeded and will do again. You know what it takes, but I've always said you have to want it but I believe you do. Don't beat yourself up over the relapse. You're not on your own. Its how you deal with it afterwards that matters, but you do have the strength, you've proved it 1 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Solario333 Posted May 7, 2022 Share Posted May 7, 2022 (edited) Every day is a blank sheet of paper . Write your day without chance , or with chance . You are in control . its your day . fill the sheet of paper with purpose not frustration . Never put regret , anger, fear, emotion, into the words you write. for tomorrow there is another blank sheet and mine says All is Love. Fill your day with doing , in the company of friends and family and make them the centre of your world . Don't look back in anger , or feed the past history with self recrimination. today is a blank sheet , keep it positive. Let nature be your best friend .... Edited May 7, 2022 by Solario333 1 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kev40 Posted May 7, 2022 Share Posted May 7, 2022 2 hours ago, Antonin said: I'm also a bit confused because I thought I was done with this gambling demon. I don't know how many times I'll fall. However, I am fully responsible and I'll take that loss like a man. @Antonin i think I'm very much going on a similar path to you. Nearly 2 years of been sensible then several lapses in the last 6 months. I know the gambling demon will always be there but this time I've even stopped the poker. Its weird this time though. Before i felt like even when i didn't gamble i could still talk about gambling all day but this time i don't seem to have any interest in gambling talk whatsoever. I haven't even watched a horse race in 5 weeks. The biggest help for me at the minute is playing golf at almost every opportunity. I suppose I'm rediscovering what i enjoyed as a kid and surprisingly I'm enjoying playing as much as i did then. I hope there are no lapses in the future but I'm realistic and I'd be shocked if there were none. I'm currently 35 days into this journey and even though it feels like here we go again. I'm hoping this time things will be different. Good luck mate. 2 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blampy Posted May 7, 2022 Share Posted May 7, 2022 1 hour ago, Kev40 said: @Antonin i think I'm very much going on a similar path to you. Nearly 2 years of been sensible then several lapses in the last 6 months. I know the gambling demon will always be there but this time I've even stopped the poker. Its weird this time though. Before i felt like even when i didn't gamble i could still talk about gambling all day but this time i don't seem to have any interest in gambling talk whatsoever. I haven't even watched a horse race in 5 weeks. The biggest help for me at the minute is playing golf at almost every opportunity. I suppose I'm rediscovering what i enjoyed as a kid and surprisingly I'm enjoying playing as much as i did then. I hope there are no lapses in the future but I'm realistic and I'd be shocked if there were none. I'm currently 35 days into this journey and even though it feels like here we go again. I'm hoping this time things will be different. Good luck mate. Hello Kevin, sorry to hear that mate. Hope you get sorted bud. 1 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted May 7, 2022 Author Share Posted May 7, 2022 I can't believe how time flies so fast. It's been 4 years since I joined this forum. Thanks again to all of you. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted May 10, 2022 Author Share Posted May 10, 2022 DAY 4 1 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blacko Posted May 10, 2022 Share Posted May 10, 2022 On 07/05/2022 at 15:46, Antonin said: I can't believe how time flies so fast. It's been 4 years since I joined this forum. Thanks again to all of you. I know, I’ve been on it 3 years… feels like 6 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jok3st3r Posted May 10, 2022 Share Posted May 10, 2022 1 hour ago, Blacko said: I know, I’ve been on it 3 years… feels like 6 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blacko Posted May 10, 2022 Share Posted May 10, 2022 2 hours ago, Jok3st3r said: Fuck.. make that 9 years 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bangers Posted May 10, 2022 Share Posted May 10, 2022 On 06/05/2022 at 19:20, Antonin said: Well, It DIDN'T Go as planned! I've lost a little bit more MONEY! TO THIS DAY ON MAY 6, 2022, I'm starting a new JOURNEY to be gamble free once again. I cannot handle to lose anymore money ... This IS NOT WORTH IT at all. I WILL KEEP YOU POSTED! I will do an update next month. I really don't know why I'M DOING THIS TO MYSELF! THE STORM MUST END NOW! Anyway, have a great week-end! All you can do is get up and try again fella I gave up smoking back on 27th Aug 2012 - Think my first ever cigarette was about 1983 so I was a smoker just shy of 30 years In that time I just couldn't predict how many times I tried quitting but always returned, went 3 months many times and 5 months even a few 8 & 9 months but stupidly returned. Not actually sure what went on in my head that finally gave me the strength to quit for good but it just shows that even after so many failed attempts giving something up for good can be done, weird even thinking this August is 10 years. I along with some other members really do hope you can come back one day and tell us with confidence you are a non gambler. It really is amazing what time can do along with how the mind works, it can almost be like flicking a switch from On to Off IMO anyway What is it they say ? You might take many roads of failure in order to reach the road of success, or something like that. At least you are trying. 1 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bangers Posted May 10, 2022 Share Posted May 10, 2022 9 hours ago, Blacko said: I know, I’ve been on it 3 years… feels like 6 I had a house before I joined here Then I started following your tips . . 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted May 12, 2022 Author Share Posted May 12, 2022 (edited) DAY 6 I was so tempted to take a gamble. I finally made it to day 6. I'm trying to avoid gambling by focusing on things that matter most. Boredom is a killer but you all know how that works. Edited May 12, 2022 by Antonin 1 5 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted May 16, 2022 Author Share Posted May 16, 2022 DAY 10 Relapsed was a very bad idea, I know it. I can't stop thinking how much I lost since then. I can take that losse but it hurts. I move forward... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted May 16, 2022 Author Share Posted May 16, 2022 (edited) I'll always be a degenerate fudger... Why I'm doing this over and over... Edited May 16, 2022 by Antonin Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antonin Posted May 16, 2022 Author Share Posted May 16, 2022 Just to be clear I didn't gambled 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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