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Nothing pointless about this post at all. I have not experienced homelessness although the rest of what you wrote rings many memory bells for myself and im sure many others. All us gamblers live in a fantasy world where we dream of a big win to set everything right but in reality whether we have 50p or a million quid ultimately it is only betting funds. Appreciate you sharing this. Others have done this sharing too and one day I might even do so. I hope it has given some comfort to you just getting it down. Good luck for the future

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When is the book out ?? That's some story. You sound like me been a charmer with the ladies in the past ha ha. It's great to hear these stories and its a reality check of what could and probably has happened to many. Thanks for sharing the story. Would love to read more if you have the time to post anymore stories.

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No seriously Ryan, again, if you give one person a second thought into the consequences of gambling, your story was well worth it. Also helps to understand why you were so anti-gambling when you first started trolling in chat. Just glad you have managed to turn your life around. £5K when you were 20......  I was living off beer, vodka and fray bentos pies as a student when i was 20 ?

Right, what were those dating sites again? @McSplooger

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15 minutes ago, Crunchienut said:

No seriously Ryan, again, if you give one person a second thought into the consequences of gambling, your story was well worth it. Also helps to understand why you were so anti-gambling when you first started trolling in chat. Just glad you have managed to turn your life around. £5K when you were 20......  I was living off beer, vodka and fray bentos pies as a student when i was 20 ?

Right, what were those dating sites again? @McSplooger

I think the username hunglikeadonkey might help Crunchie

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54 minutes ago, Brownman24 said:

You were much more insightful and interesting though!

Your insight was more evocative and colourful , and more emphatically made.... and was equally true, and thats why everyone here matters , because we all have a unique expression ,and see life just a little differently from others. This makes the whole much more fun, and very rewarding .

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Cheers for sharing your story, I’m a lifelong  gambling degenerate and one day I will share with you some of my stupid gambling stories, and I’m not really proud of any of them but gambling addictions are fierce and relentless with no consciences.

When I’ve done my utter balls in on any specific day it always has what I like to call  ‘the knock on effect’ later on long after I’ve lost the money.

So early last week I blew a £1000 in the bookies when I really should of been working, my chimp called (the chimp paradox book great read)and I went a running.

So because I did not work that specific day it has cost me not only the grand lost gambling but an additional £1150 and 4 days of unpaid work all because the weather changed and I made a stupid school boy error, if I hadn’t of gambled that day none of this would be happening, I would be getting paid tomorrow for the weeks work but not now, it’s mighty hard grafting my arse off for nothing, I’m getting too old for this.

I am sick of living in the KNOCK ON EFFECT.

p.s anybody not read the chimp paradox I highly recommend it, by Steve Peters 

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I never really paid much attention when gambling addiction was referred to  as "an illness" I now realise exactly what is meant by that. I was the first in line kicking my heels up when the £2 maximum stake was introduced for the FOBts. After a long wait I visit the local bookies with a smile on my face double checking that I could only gamble a maximum of £2 a spin on roulette. Next thing I know i'm heading over to the slots chasing a bonus on King Kong Cash at 50p a throw. Long story short I walk out £30 down with a hollow feeling that I have to accept that the gambling commission can do all they can but maybe it's me that needs to sort myself out.

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Thanks to everyone for their kind responses to this. It was good to actually get it off my chest after not telling anyone for so long. 

There's some great people on here. I will reply in more detail to some of the comments when I have a minute as I'm currently snowed in with too many kids and a lot of work to do today. I have read them all though! I'm sure we most can relate to times like these though if you have ever suffered addiction whether that's gambling or something else. 

Much love! 

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16 hours ago, Blacko said:

I never really paid much attention when gambling addiction was referred to  as "an illness" I now realise exactly what is meant by that. I was the first in line kicking my heels up when the £2 maximum stake was introduced for the FOBts. After a long wait I visit the local bookies with a smile on my face double checking that I could only gamble a maximum of £2 a spin on roulette. Next thing I know i'm heading over to the slots chasing a bonus on King Kong Cash at 50p a throw. Long story short I walk out £30 down with a hollow feeling that I have to accept that the gambling commission can do all they can but maybe it's me that needs to sort myself out.

Six of one ,and half a dozen of the other....when we are totally honest about it ,we know when to stop. exactly when to stop.....but then the next bet is imminent....and the price is right.....but it loses.... always.  And on the day it wins the bets all win , but we end up losing , because we've lost control of value.... and our virtue has become greed.  

So , half a dozen reasons that the bookmakers and casinos know all this and just by being there to encourage your weakness ,can capitalise and ruin your future.

It all begins and ends with you . You are the problem and you are the solution.....but of course the gambler will find a way to blame , the cat , the next door neighbour, the man who just came into the shop....or even the weather, or the going ......its endless...and its stupidity, because we are all really perfectly capable of control.... when we have to !!!

So @Blacko Welcome to TGC where lots of people just like you have joined to share the reality of Gambling ,and to enjoy the company of those who apply risk ,as a way of life.  Here we have plenty of banter,and just a few Rules.

1) No lies or Bullshit.

2) no personal attacks .

3) No advertising or commercial crap.... without administrative approval.

So enjoy our company ,and speak your truth. We will listen and we will give you support , and both barrels if you need it. !!!

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Incredible story and thanks for sharing it with us. I take it you managed to rekindle it with the family afterwards ? 

I think most of us can probably relate to this in some manner, i have just this minute blown the last of my bank balance until middle of next week. I dont have overdrafts or credit cards purely because i know i would max them out. So yeah im on my arse for a few days but ill survive one way or another

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On 10/04/2019 at 03:53, 1pstaker said:

Nothing pointless about this post at all. I have not experienced homelessness although the rest of what you wrote rings many memory bells for myself and im sure many others. All us gamblers live in a fantasy world where we dream of a big win to set everything right but in reality whether we have 50p or a million quid ultimately it is only betting funds. Appreciate you sharing this. Others have done this sharing too and one day I might even do so. I hope it has given some comfort to you just getting it down. Good luck for the future

Indeed and it can quickly spiral out of control too as I have found out and I'm sure others have too. The amount of times I've 'just' fancied a punt of a tenner or so for it to run in to hundreds/thousands is laughable really. No self control, totally reckless and without thought for anyone but myself and my fix. Hope you share your story one day and thanks for the comment man. 

 

On 10/04/2019 at 09:25, Solario333 said:

So what this thread tells me is that you have reached a point where honesty really matters. All Gamblers have lied,through guilt greed,anger,frustration , but mostly through fear of hurting those they truly love. So its no surprise that we end up living in a cardboard box under the arches somewhere in a big city.  But its also only a stepping stone to a better life. You have become that better person,and thus knowing all the evil that exists out there ,can be best placed to counsel those who have little experience of disaster, as many gamblers do !! 

The only message I can give you is REGRET NOTHING.  Never apply regret because it is a negative energy.  You have made your mistakes, honestly, dishonestly and have endured real hardship emotionally and psychologically , so take credit form the fact that Truth now enters to help you Give, and not take. Those who give learn to take what is needed ,and are not prone to greed ,as opposed to those who Take take take, who are self absorbed and fixated . You have won the battle for integrity.

Now live the  same battle by relaxing , enjoying the company of those you love.....because at the end of the day , life is about people, about nature and about Love ..... You have the wisdom. Use it. 

 

You're always full of wise words. It's very true what you say though. With maturity I now value honesty above everything which is a far cry from what I used to be like. It is true these experiences have made me a better person but its taken a long time and I've hurt a lot of people along the way. 

I see the world like you now. Life is about people. It's not about what we have but who we have. Keep sharing positive vibes bro! 

On 10/04/2019 at 10:47, Brownman24 said:

You might have been a lying piece of shit in the past but your a fucking hero for sharing that 

Haha. I'm pretty sure the women who have been featured in this post would not agree ? I used to do it all the time though, charm my way out of a shit situation from gambling. It only lasts so long though and you're left with bugger all. Thanks though! 

On 10/04/2019 at 11:01, Jok3st3r said:

Agree with the others, and some! You.are.amazing! Keep it up. 

I literally just wrote a whole post about womanising, lying and being homeless and you think I'm amazing. Easily pleased eh? ?? Thanks doe! 

On 10/04/2019 at 15:23, Chair Slots said:

I hope you learnt the most valuable lesson of all in that tale, which is that Warrington is a shithole.

I give it a solid 3/10. Smelt like depression and misery when I got off the train. Probably my armpits from not having a wash though ? on the plus side the girl worked in a bowling alley and had been stealing capsule toys from a machine for some unknown reason which I then stole off her. I had fuck all but I did have some pretty sweet sonic the hedgehog/winnie the pooh phone charms from my stay there. 

21 hours ago, Crunchienut said:

No seriously Ryan, again, if you give one person a second thought into the consequences of gambling, your story was well worth it. Also helps to understand why you were so anti-gambling when you first started trolling in chat. Just glad you have managed to turn your life around. £5K when you were 20......  I was living off beer, vodka and fray bentos pies as a student when i was 20 ?

Right, what were those dating sites again? @McSplooger

Yeah, gambling has affected me quite badly so I took it personal that people were baiting others to join casinos hence the trolling if you like. Especially when I seen some of the horror stories in the chat which I could relate to. Hey man you were living like a king compared to me sometimes. I would of killed for a god damn frey bentos during my hungry days on the street ha. Hell I would of give my right testicle for a slurp of pot noodle juice. 

No dating sites my man. Just good old Facebook stalking is your friend. Get filtered up and use a lip ring to filter out chavs. Change your name, use different profiles to keep females apart and you will be balls deep before you know it. Good luck good sir. 

17 hours ago, Hacko 1 said:

Cheers for sharing your story, I’m a lifelong  gambling degenerate and one day I will share with you some of my stupid gambling stories, and I’m not really proud of any of them but gambling addictions are fierce and relentless with no consciences.

When I’ve done my utter balls in on any specific day it always has what I like to call  ‘the knock on effect’ later on long after I’ve lost the money.

So early last week I blew a £1000 in the bookies when I really should of been working, my chimp called (the chimp paradox book great read)and I went a running.

So because I did not work that specific day it has cost me not only the grand lost gambling but an additional £1150 and 4 days of unpaid work all because the weather changed and I made a stupid school boy error, if I hadn’t of gambled that day none of this would be happening, I would be getting paid tomorrow for the weeks work but not now, it’s mighty hard grafting my arse off for nothing, I’m getting too old for this.

I am sick of living in the KNOCK ON EFFECT.

p.s anybody not read the chimp paradox I highly recommend it, by Steve Peters 

I suppose many of us have gone through this as well. Payday loans and borrowing money usually leave us in that situation. However in your case I assume you get paid weekly? So the damage may not be as severe. Still it's a horrible gut churning moment to watch all your funds disappear. If we are down we chase the losses and even if we get in to a healthy profit we keep gambling because you can never have enough money right?

How bad is your gambling? I take it you do this often? Its hard to break the cycle if its all you've known. Some day you will stop, I think everyone becomes fed up of constantly being poor and having nothing to show for their efforts. Do you want to stop? 

Not read that book, will take a look. Is it gambling related? Wishing you well anyway! Let me know if you need any advice on how to stop or just someone to talk to mate. 

17 hours ago, Blacko said:

I never really paid much attention when gambling addiction was referred to  as "an illness" I now realise exactly what is meant by that. I was the first in line kicking my heels up when the £2 maximum stake was introduced for the FOBts. After a long wait I visit the local bookies with a smile on my face double checking that I could only gamble a maximum of £2 a spin on roulette. Next thing I know i'm heading over to the slots chasing a bonus on King Kong Cash at 50p a throw. Long story short I walk out £30 down with a hollow feeling that I have to accept that the gambling commission can do all they can but maybe it's me that needs to sort myself out.

This is exactly it, no matter how many restrictions are in play we will find a way to gamble if we really want to. I came to this realisation a while ago, the problem doesn't lie with casinos, bookies or the regulatory bodies it lies with us. Want to play roulette now the bookies are restricted then go online. Can't play online cause of gamstop then sign up to a dodgy site to play. At some point we must accept blame and accept the problem is us as the addicts. Hope things work out mate and you can keep away if it's a problem. 

 

1 hour ago, Lighty45 said:

Incredible story and thanks for sharing it with us. I take it you managed to rekindle it with the family afterwards ? 

I think most of us can probably relate to this in some manner, i have just this minute blown the last of my bank balance until middle of next week. I dont have overdrafts or credit cards purely because i know i would max them out. So yeah im on my arse for a few days but ill survive one way or another

Yeah it took some time but we are fine now although i guess I will never have their full trust no matter how much I've changed now. Some things stick unfortunately. That being said it's much better now. I can't ever legit lose my wallet though as they think I'm talking a load of rubbish ha. 

Sorry to hear this mate. Hopefully you don't have any debt to go along with the loss? Hopefully you can find some inspiration in that I've done without food and a roof over my head for weeks if not months on end and I'm still here and now don't gamble. When you find yourself at rock bottom maybe then you will make a change yourself. Hope things works out for you. 

 

Sorry for the massive comment. Just thought I would reply as people have took their time to reply to me. 

On 10/04/2019 at 14:54, Markymark said:

Can't add to the great comments, but you should be really proud of yourself for such an honest and open post. I like to think we're a family in TGC and am sure we all send you much love mate. Brilliant post. ??

Forgot this one ha. I'm not proud at all my man. I have been a worthless human being for long periods of my life. That being said I think it's good to share the reality of gambling every now and again. Gambling is fun but if you get someone like me who is using it to escape life problems then it's hell. Thanks a lot anyway mate! 

 

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