Lighty45 Posted February 28, 2019 Share Posted February 28, 2019 So some of you will be aware I suffer with MH problems, have done for a few years now and over that time I’ve been through pretty much every kind of therapy and countless courses of medication. Been on this current meds for around 18 months and generally speaking life has not been to bad. Ok I do isolate myself, can go weeks without talking to other humans in person. usually this is not a problem for me and I’m quite happy to live my life in this manner. I have my little 110cc scooter and if I’m feeling like it’s getting to much I go for a long ride out. That was all fine until Mon, moods had been slowly dropping, nothing to really concern me as it’s a regular thing. Decide that 1st thing Tues I’ll go for a ride down the coast. And then when it started. In the space of 24 hours everything went wrong. My bikes ceased up, my TVs died a death. And from being as ok as I could be my financial position has taken a huge hit. Not from gambling but I’d rather not go into that. This took me into tues night weds morning, not sleeping through worry and fear. And that’s when it’s at its worst for me, I’m an over thinker. And it just got much. I began self harming again. Over a period of say 2 hours. The state I got into resulted in a visit to AnE patched up, seen the crisis team. Coining to see me again tomorrow. im just so annoyed with myself, I’ve not done anything like this for over 2 years then bang right back where I was before. Ive closed my casino accounts down to prevent me from going on there praying for a huge hit. I’ll still come in here n join in the crack n comps on forum. But no more gambling until I’m in a better place financially. 4 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Player1173 Posted February 28, 2019 Share Posted February 28, 2019 Sorry to hear your situation mate. You seem pretty level headed about everything, so you probably already know what you need to do to put it right. Hopefully this is just a bump in the road for you, and you can get back on track now. Try not to be to hard on yourself, whats done is done. Best of luck. 1 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Markymark Posted February 28, 2019 Share Posted February 28, 2019 Sorry to hear that mate, your not alone here. Since the beginning of this forum there has been many TGC in similar financial states, me included. Everything might seen dark at the moment and being unwell will make it twice as depressing. Most importantly, you need to be strong, the next few months won't be easy, but it will get easier and you will get your finances sorted. Stay strong, stay focused, one day at a time. I know TGC will be there for you. PM me at anytime. Much love mate. 1 6 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
adamuk Posted February 28, 2019 Share Posted February 28, 2019 I'm currently on the move and just read this and want to reply properly to you, but just wanted you to quickly know I think it's amazing that you can post and be honest as you have. Stay strong my friend. (I will reply properly over the weekend) Adam 1 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lighty45 Posted February 28, 2019 Author Share Posted February 28, 2019 Thanks for the response guys it means so much. If I’m honest the finances don’t worry to much as I know I can sort them well ok my scooters really upset me. The part that’s hurt or upset me the most is the dropping back to the self harming. I’d done so well with several coping strategies in place but they didn’t work and that’s the hardest part to accept. I think the only real positive is that I didn’t take an overdose and chose the self harm route. I will beat it, I know I can, I’ve done it before and if anything I am more determined this time. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
philinvicta Posted February 28, 2019 Share Posted February 28, 2019 Stay strong . I am sure there are people here can offer a support if only reassurance when you need it. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
adamuk Posted March 2, 2019 Share Posted March 2, 2019 Sorry for the delay in replying "Lightly" How are you getting on now and how did it go when you met with the Crisis team? The thing is any mental health problems that you sadly suffer from will always be there in one shape or other, and an unfortunate series of events can make them come to the forefront of your mind, and it seems this is what has happened in your case. Can I ask what medication they have put you on and what others you have tried? Have you sorted your TV and motorcycle out yet, or even worked out what was wrong with them? If it's a part you need one of my best friends owns a well known Motorcycle repair shop in Norwich and I can get you trade prices on parts, if you are handy with a spanner, it if you are local I can arrange for him to sort it for you for free. Televisions are pretty cheap these days I believe ( I haven't owned one for 12 years so I'm a bit out of touch on prices, but had a quick look ) maybe even get one off Gumtree or Facebook they seem to be about £40.00 - £50.00. If you cannot simply afford one let me know and I will quickly devise a quiz today with a prize if a TV (secondhand) that I'm sure you stand a good chance winning I think it's fairly vital that you get yourself these things sorted asap, as they seem to be a lifeline for you. I can help but you have to let people help, I have worked for 20 years in the field and also battled some Demons in my life. Let me know my friend. Most importantly stay strong and stay safe, inevitably things are never as bad as they first seem. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poker Posted March 5, 2019 Share Posted March 5, 2019 On 28/02/2019 at 23:29, Lighty45 said: Thanks for the response guys it means so much. If I’m honest the finances don’t worry to much as I know I can sort them well ok my scooters really upset me. The part that’s hurt or upset me the most is the dropping back to the self harming. I’d done so well with several coping strategies in place but they didn’t work and that’s the hardest part to accept. I think the only real positive is that I didn’t take an overdose and chose the self harm route. I will beat it, I know I can, I’ve done it before and if anything I am more determined this time. hi l45 hope that you are able to let us know you are okay as it's been a few days since you posted, I'm sure I speak for all of TGC and say that when you need any help we are all here and as Adam has said above there are lots of ways that we can keep your mind no matter the state occupied and to help you through all of this, with material objects you need to stay on top of it all or just a good old fashioned chat, drop me over a DM when you can as traveling so will check in later again 2 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lighty45 Posted March 6, 2019 Author Share Posted March 6, 2019 Thanks for that, I have popped on a few times. Doing a lot better, one of my illnesses means that my moods can change from extreme highs to extreme lows several times a day. Previously this wasn’t to much of an issue as I had tools in place but I think the lack of sleep really had a negative impact. I now have several coping mechanisms in place and although it’s early things are better. Keeping myself busy to occupy my mind. Thank you for asking how things are going. 1 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
adamuk Posted March 6, 2019 Share Posted March 6, 2019 I am very relieved to hear your in a better place at the moment, my offer still stands or if you ever want a chat just send me a private message and we sort it out. Stay strong. 1 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poker Posted March 6, 2019 Share Posted March 6, 2019 12 hours ago, Lighty45 said: Thanks for that, I have popped on a few times. Doing a lot better, one of my illnesses means that my moods can change from extreme highs to extreme lows several times a day. Previously this wasn’t to much of an issue as I had tools in place but I think the lack of sleep really had a negative impact. I now have several coping mechanisms in place and although it’s early things are better. Keeping myself busy to occupy my mind. Thank you for asking how things are going. Well done, the path is long, but together we are TGC strong 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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